Old blog post from 2005

These are a few blog entries from my old blog back from

July 26th 2005
Well, life has been a bit down for me lately - I am really excited & feel so blessed that we have a house, but am also begining to realize that the plan that God has for mine & Greg's life is not exactly what I had imagined. While Florida is becoming more like home - I am having a deep sadness over the changing relationships of those who don't live here. I am missing my family a lot & trying to understand what this new phase of life & friendships will look like from a distance. I know that it will be good, just not the same.

Below is a section that a friend wrote a few months back - I place it here because it really sums up how I am feeling

I have been weary. Struggling to not give in to the pressures of everyday life, struggling to not let burdens weigh me down. I struggle with feeling like the cross I have been given is too much to carry. I’ve felt pressure from many sides. There isn’t enough time in the day to accomplish everything. I feel like I am letting people down, causing hurt and bringing pain. Am I too busy? Do I have too much on my plate? Or is this just a season? I realize much of the pressure I feel is from within…expectations I have for myself. When I don’t meet them I feel like I’ve failed.


Some Verses God is speaking to me through

Jeremiah 17:7-8
James
Exodus 18:18





Well, over the past few months there has been a lot of stress at at times it has been very easy to lose site of why I am in the job I am in. Today I was reminded in a huge way..........http://givenew.blogspot.com/2005/07/seeing.html ........ this blog is from one of our missionaries in Amsterdam. When sometimes I get caught up in paperwork and administrative things that seem to have no impact on the kingdom, I need to realize that we here at the HQ are a support to the many oversees and on campuses. Our work is not useless but helps in equipping others to go out.